That day, you called me your lil' sis
That day, I called you my Nii-chan.
And that day, I totally fell in love, with you!
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Now, what?
You let me down! Down down down down. Like you always did before!
I thought I could forget all of this, all of depression you brought. I thought I could forget all about you.
And I did.
Yeah, I did. Forgot you, forgot the feeling of love, for you. Forgot all the stupid mood you've done for me.
For me.
I always respect you, as my big brother. As my great brother. As my perfect brother.
I did. And I do, always and always.
But, you! You, never consider me as your friend, your sister, anything. I'm nothing to you, nothing nothing nothing!
You got rid of my nick in your friendlist, without any hesitations, just because you dont like my status. You said that my status had got on your nerves. Oh great!
You didnt even ask me. You didnt even tell me. You didnt even complain face-to-face with me.
You told that to my lil' sis. And then, you deleted me, from your list, from your life!
You didnt even let me have my own feeling, my own way.
Fine!
I'll leave. Your list. Your contact. Your life!
I dont care anymore.
You said "stop here"? Okay, then stop! Stop stop stop.
Whatever. Who cares?
I'm nothing to you, right? Nothing, at the beginning............
Holy crap!
Who the hell do you think you are? My big brother, my greatest brother? Oh yeah, so what? I'm still nothing to you.
And why the hell I have to continue respecting you as that while I'm nothing to your life?
No way in hell!
Enough for that. I'm me, I have my own thinking, and all of this is NOTHING to do with YOU!
I dont care. Dont care. Dont care! Ever again!
Dammit all!
Goddamme!
5.08.2008
Mou....I'm down...........
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I can't say that I'm able to understand fully what you're going through but there's one thing I know that ending a relationship is always hard, it's hard because it hurts so damn much that one could possibly bear, all the thing that you used to believe now becomes nothing than just hatred and disrespect, especially when that's the one you used to give your heart too.
ReplyDeleteHowever, all things must come to an end, some may have happy endings, some may not. Yours is just unfortunately not one of the lucky cases, but somehow I know you're mature enough to deal with it. Be strong, ne? There's always another open door next to the closed one and you can't never expect what may come. Wish you best luck :)
Fany
Thank you for supporting me. I'm feeling better. Just promise me, that you dwont ever leave me like him, 'k? I'm scared~
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