LAVI FC | Imman idiot...

Okay, so here comes the new Lavi FC~

LAVI FC - We're gonna shower the world with Love and Lavi

I'm trying my best, guys.

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Ugh...I'm wondering....was it..my mistake, in the first place?
I mean, mine, not yours. You were no wrong choosing me.
Or maybe, cuz Imma chicken.
I knew this would happen, sooner or later. Yes I was fully aware of this, but still, I couldnt avoid it.

I did the last thing I ever want to do in my whole life.

I've made my partner sad.

If your gonna tell me that it's not my fault, then you don't have to. Because I know that, yes, I know that too well. It isn't.

Isn't it?

But could you stop yourself from feeling guilty for hurting your very close friend so badly, knowing too well at the beginning that you would do that yet you weren't able to do anything to stop it? Knowing too well that it would be so damn hard for you to be a responsible person and a good friend at the same time?
Knowing too well that you would feel down even more than anyone?

I couldn't.

It sucks.

Understanding him too well, yet there's still no any other way to fix it.

Sucks.
I suck!

I'm depressed now. Great.
Call me an idiot, please.
I've been thinking too much, probably. I'm sick of thinking to much, but like hell I can control my damn feelings.
And I'm sick now.
One thing's for sure, that I'm not going to give up. I'm a trustworthy one, I am, I really am.
But I truly am a bad friend.
Really, partner, I wish you could understand what I feel right now. I wish...I wish...
I should tell you, shouldn't I? But how?

I don't know what to do anymore.
Too much pressure. Too much stress. I'm gonna explode.

I am sorry.